All is well...

Today I am 40 weeks and 5 days. I am getting really anxious to meet this little one! I am trying to stay patient but it's really hard. My babies seem to like staying in their womb for as long as possible.


The other night I was having some contractions and they were timing about 5 minutes apart and I was getting pretty excited but then they started getting further apart and eventually went away after a couple of hours. I was pretty bummed but I at least was able to get some sleep lol.

I have been having contractions today so we will see what happens. I am just going to really try and be patient. My doctors appointment was yesterday and we scheduled an induction date for Monday. I am just praying he/she arrives before then.

Kanzis' cousins are back in town for a quick visit again. We had so much fun with them last time so it's always fun when we can visit. Kanzis loves playing with them!

We went and visited Kaizen's headstone on Memorial Day. Kanzis loves to give his picture kisses and it melts my heart. I imagine them being the best of friends. So close to each other. I miss him so much it hurts but I know he is watching over Kanzis and soon his other little brother or sister. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I try not to be selfish and wish him back, wish him here with us so I can watch all of my children play together, I know he is where he needs to be, but sometimes it is just so hard. The overwhelming sadness I sometimes feel is like a thief in the night. It happens when I least expect it. It happens when I am watching other little boys that are around the age he would have been and I just loose it thinking about who he might have been. It's sneaky and it's selfish and it doesn't care where I am or who I am with. But I deal with it. I am thankful for it. I love him so much and I am thankful for any chance I get to feel those feelings of a love that is so strong, it is eternal. 

I saw this quote on Facebook and I wanted to share it...

"Death is nothing at all. It does not count. I have only slipped away into the next room. Nothing has happened. Everything remains exactly as it was. I am I, and you are you, and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged. Whatever we were to each other, that we are still. Call me by the old familiar name. Speak of me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together. Play, smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was. Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it. Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was. There is absolute and unbroken continuity. What is this death but a negligible accident? Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner. All is well."

Those words are so powerful to me and I agree with them completely.

All is well.

Adventures while we wait

One of my favorite things is a simple Sunday drive after a few hours in church learning of our Heavenly Father who created it all.  To be able to drive around and see the beauty that we can sometimes take for granted just warms my heart. It's even better when you get to see some wildlife!

We took our dog Buckley with us so he could get some exercise...he has been putting on some weight.

Kanzy fell asleep and Josh and I got to talk and take in all of the beautiful scenery.


Josh's brother's son has been starting to do some racing on his dirt bike so we went and watched him the other day at the Rocky Mountain Raceway. He is so good and even took 1st in one of the races we watched!

It started to rain a little at the end so good thing we had our umbrella! He was sure fun to watch!

Random picture time...

My little sister got some lambs for a project at school so we went to go see them. Kanzis wasn't too sure about them

We thought we could beat the rain the other day and try and go on a quick walk to help this baby want to make an entrance soon but the rain got to us just as soon as we walked down the path a little ways. At least we could get a couple pictures first...

Josh and I made this headband holder for Kanzy. It works out much better than digging through the little box they were all in.

She loves her daddy so much...so do I. 

Practicing golfing with daddy!

I have to talk a little about that man real quick. I don't think he realizes how much I appreciate all he does for me...for us.  He has taken such good care of me during this pregnancy, and at this point in time, I think it's safe to say he does most of the cooking lately. Not just easy things like hot dogs either, last night he made some chicken noodle casserole...from scratch! It was delicious! I couldn't have dreamt of a better daddy for our children. I truly feel like he does just as much as I do. I don't mean to get too mushy here...but maybe I do... I just want him to know that my love for him is everlasting and it grows more and more everyday.  I am so thankful he is mine for eternity and that I am his. What a life we have had so far, I'm sure glad it's been him by my side through it all. I love who you are, I love who I am when I am with you, and I sure love the little people we have made!

Latest projects and fun happenings

So I didn't make the week. dang. But we are doing better, at least it wasn't a month.

We have actually been a little busy so I have some things to share!

First off, lets talk baby.

I am 38 weeks tomorrow. Yay!
Up until my last doctors visit which was this last Monday, the baby had been breech, which was getting me quite nervous. But after a few trips to the chiropractor, the little one made a turn. I don't think I have ever been so excited to see a round head, head down on the ultrasound before.

Just 2 more weeks left and I am getting nervous. With every pregnancy, I get scared. I worry. And I don't enjoy it as much as I should. This pregnancy has been so good to me. I really have had nothing at all to complain about. I just feel so thankful. And yet there is still those what-if's in the back of my mind that often times I just can't put to rest. I am thankful for my husband during these thoughts though. He is always positive and often gives me blessings to help me feel better. He tells me that whatever happens, Heavenly Father will always help us through it. He is so right. :)

So today, I am excited. I cannot wait to meet this little person who has been kicking like crazy in its little womb. I am so excited to see Kanzis love on her baby sibling, to grow, to share, to be almost a family of five! Wow!

So what we have been up to...

Josh and I built some shelves for our garage. Josh did most of the work, obviously, but it was nice to be able to help a little.

What a fun little afternoon project.

I don't know if it was the building of the shelves or not, but I was inspired to do another project. This time a sewing one. I have some throw pillows for our couch but I wanted to make some pillow covers. I didn't want to have to go out and buy new throw pillows so I found some fabric that I loved and that would match my color scheme and got to work...

I love how they turned out! I made 7 pillow covers and each one took about 15-20 minutes, from the beginning cut to the last iron run. Awesome. I used this tutorial I found on pinterest if you are interested in making these. I got my fabric, surprisingly, at Walmart for a little under $4.00 a yard. So easy and fun!

We took Kanzy to the park the other day. She loves to be outside.

And she got to go again with her cute cousins that she hasn't seen in a while. Josh's brother's family is visiting from Montana and it has been so fun spending time with them.

Yesterday, we all went to the This is the Place Heritage Park. I think the kids really enjoyed it.

This was the first time Kanzis has ever been on a pony and she loved it! She didn't want to get off. 

 

 Kanzis was not interested in getting a shave at all. lol. None of the kids were.

   

Doing some leather stamping

They even got to pan for their own gold!

Such a fun day!

Some random pictures...

Watching the rain 

 Ever since we bought our new couches, she loves pushing the button to make it recline. Silly girl.

I love her so much!

I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!