Mother

My mother.........

     O what a woman! This post I am writing to my mom to let her know how much she is loved... 

     First I will start by saying Happy Birthday mom! I hope you had a wonderful day! I miss you so much and wish I could have been there to share your special day. I want to thank you for all of the wonderful things you have done for me...all the times you were there when I needed you, and still are. I love how you raised me....I love how you always knew what was best for me...even when it meant that I would be so mad at you at times. I wish I knew then what I know now. I wish I knew back then that when you said no...you were only keeping my best interest in mind. I wish I wouldn't have back-mouthed so much...I know now how irritating that must have been. I wish I would have known then how hard it was for you to raise 4 little girls...maybe if I had known,I could have made it easier on you....I could have helped out more.

     I realize now why you worried and cared so much about us. I may only have one baby now but by me being a mother...I FINALLY realize why you were that way...and why you still worry about us. The love for a child is unconditional, wonderful, eternal and so much more. I wish I would have known how much that love meant back then.

  I can't though, I cant go back...and I hate that I cant. But all I can do now is be what I wasn't so much of back then...... a good daughter.

      I dont think I was the worst daughter on the planet however....I loved how sometimes I would clean your room and the whole house and when you got home I would tell you to go sit on the couch so I could give you a good foot rub.....I loved how I would make you a homemade card and set it on your pillow and watch as you read it with a smile.... I did these things because I knew they made you happy......I knew it helped take the stress off from a long day at work....but what I don't know is why I didn't do it more often. I was selfish and I hate that I was.

 The good thing is it's not too late....I know now how much you love and loved me and now I can show you truly how greatful I am to you! Thank you for loving me even when I pushed you to your breaking point. Thank you for supporting me during all of my cheerleading days....thank you for being patient with me even when I know you wanted to scream at times.

     I grew up.....I became a good mom, a good wife, a good friend, and a good sister.....all because of YOU!

                       Mother's hold their child's hand for a moment, and their hearts for a lifetime.

I love you so much mom! Thank you for holding my hand for a moment, and for keeping my heart with yours always!