& The greatest of these is love: November fun!

After Kaizen's little birthday get together, Josh, Kanzy, and I went for a ride on my dad's new side by side. That little girls LOVES being outside and riding on anything with wheels. She will cry if daddy leaves and doesn't take her with him. I love that she loves it because I love being outdoors even more now that I have kids.

So ever since I have found out that Garth Brooks was touring again, I wanted to go to one of his concerts. At this point, I didn't even care where, I would go. Then I found out he was coming to Salt Lake and I lost it! He is really the only person I have ever wanted to see in concert, I just love who he is and all of his songs! We went to his concert on the 30th and it was AMAZING! I don't care if I ever go to another concert again now that the only one I cared about has been experienced. It was such an awesome night!

It was so cool to be able to see John Stockton come on stage to present Garth Brooks with the award of most tickets sold for an event at that stadium. I loved watching his face and how thankful you could tell he felt that they did that for him. Just another reason to love him!

We had the opportunity to watch my sister's little girl for a couple days. It was so fun to have someone closer to Kanzis' age for her to play with. They had a blast!

I didn't know two girls could make such a mess! Lol. This wasn't even all of it!

All three of them sleeping at the same time! It's a miracle! Can you tell which two are mine?

If the red hair doesn't give it away, maybe the thumb suckers will! Oh boy!

We went out and played in the snow. This is the first year Kinley was old enough to actually be able to play in the snow so my sister asked me to video her. She was so cute, she loved it. It was fun to see Kanzis too now that she is even a little bigger.

Having all three kids here, as chaotic as it was at times, I couldn't help thinking about what it would have been like to have Kaizen here. To have all three of my sweet little babies together. I would gladly take all of the chaos to have him here. Gladly. I went shopping the other for winter clothes for the girls and as I was in line to checkout, I glanced over to the boys section, and it hit me, that grief, that infinite sadness overtook me, right there in that line. On the outside, I managed to hold it together. But, on the inside, the tears were flowing and the desire to hold him was overwhelming. On days like that, I am incredibly grateful for my faith. That he is always near me, even when I feel like he couldn't be further away. I know he is with me, and that he is waiting for me. I am so lucky he is mine. Even though he isn't here with me, I feel so fortunate that he was born to me and Josh. The most heavenly, most pure, most beautiful boy I will ever know in my life...he is mine.

To end, here are some random pictures...