Instead of trying to catch up on everything, because that would take way too long, I will just update a little and then start fresh with today and then hopefully be better at updating. I really do love this blog so much, its like my journal so I need to keep it up.
Life has been so busy lately and I love it! Kanzis is loving her school, absolutely loving it and so am I! I look forward to when I go pick her up and see and hear about what she did that day! Kanzis and Kamzlin had a recital in December where Kami danced and Kanzis tumbled. It was so fun to see them show off what they had been learning. After the recital, Kanzis decided she wanted to do dance too so now they are both in dance and Kanzis is still in tumbling. She couldn't give that up, she loved it too much. So between dance, tumbling, school and this propane business that Josh and I have started, it can get pretty hectic.
Our propane business is doing awesome and I am so thankful for it. Josh amazes me at how dedicated he is and works his butt off to make it successful. We started this business in Star Valley, Wyoming because that is where we wanted to make our home so now that it is really getting busier we are looking for places to live there and hopefully be moving there sometime this year. I love the Star Valley area so much, it is so beautiful there. Josh and I went on our honeymoon to Yellowstone and I remember passing through Star Valley and we both thought how we wouldn't mind living there one day and now here we are, getting ready to make that happen! Usually Josh travels there alone but sometimes we go as a family and every time we come off the pass and come in to the valley, the girls always say, "Wow its the Great Valley" from Land Before Time. I laugh because it really does look like it. It's breathtaking! So as we know more about moving plans, I will update more on that.
It is always scary to move somewhere new, not knowing many people and especially having to say goodbye to this beautiful home we are in now, and the friends we have made here. Seriously, it is going to be so hard, but I am hopeful for the future. I see the happiness that it brings Josh, having something that is his, that he started from the ground up and it brings me so much joy! We definitely have to give thanks to Josh's dad who has helped tremendously with getting this business going. It wouldn't be where it is now without him. We are so very thankful for a supportive family that is for sure!
2018 so far has been so good to us. I know we are only in month 2 but it has just been so good. I had several New Years Resolutions but the one that I was determined to make happen was that I was going to do things that would make me happy. I am what is called a "people pleaser" it is both a blessing and a curse. I absolutely love helping people, giving to people, and trying to make everyone around me happier but sometimes that conflicts with my happiness, so I decided this year I was going to change that. Yes I am still going to give and help people as much as I can, but I also need to make sure that I am happy along the way. If something isn't going to make me happy, it's ok to say no. I am a better mom, wife, friend, etc. when I am happy. Everyone is. So, so far this year, I have been making this happen. I have said no to things that aren't making me happy, which is so unlike me, but I have felt a sense of relief because of it. I am still helping people and striving to make those around me happy, but it seems I have found a balance and it makes me....happy!
Speaking of being a mom, Gosh I just love these kids of mine! Some days, by the end of the day, I am so exhausted, I feel like I need to hide in the closet or make bedtime earlier. Some days, I really just need to be alone for a few hours so I can keep my sanity. But then some days, I can't get enough of them and nap time gets skipped because I just don't want to be away from them. Some days I just want to forget about all of the to-do lists and just play with them. Being a stay at home mom is tough, and it definitely has its challenging days, especially now that I am taking care of the propane business, answering phone calls, with crying or loudly happy kids in the background and trying to put in invoices, mail out statements and file and such but it also is very rewarding. I have witnessed so many milestones, wiped so many tears, kissed so many boo-boos and have felt so much love it is priceless. They are safe with me and I am grateful that I have the opportunity to be with them as much as I can.
Today at the Library for story time, the lady said something that really got to me. Today was market day so she read a couple stories about going to the store and then she told us mothers that we need to be thankful for right now, when we take our littles to the store and they ask for a treat, because one day they are going to be grown and we will be asking them if they want to come to the store with us, that we will buy them a treat if they do! And then when they are even older, they will ask us if we will go grocery shopping with them. That's just it isn't it? This is all temporary. They have to grow up. As much as that should make me happy, it makes me sad. It seems like it's just happening too dang fast! I am thankful for all that they are able to do now that they are getting older, I just wish it would happen a little slower.
Paw patrol came to story time and the girls were so excited!
They were singing "5 little monkeys jumping on the bed"
Do things that make YOU happy. I am finding that it really is the way to go. It is possible to be giving and kind and still be happy yourself. I want to be the best me so that my kids can have the best mom for them. Have a fantastic Wednesday! <3
