First off, part of the reason I have not posted much is because this pregnancy was tough. Not physically tough, but emotionally. I was emotionally drained by the end of it all. We decided to find out the gender this go around and ever since the day we found out he was a boy, I became extremely worried. I was already worried because that's just how it goes with my pregnancies since Kaizen, I worry. But knowing he was a boy made it worse. We were told that what happened to Kaizen was one in a million, but I still worried. I have had two healthy girls, since Kaizen, I just wondered if maybe it was a gender thing. It weighed on me throughout the whole pregnancy.
The last few weeks were especially rough, I normally don't ever hope my babies come early but I was hoping and praying that he would, I just couldn't take it any longer. All of my babies have been over there due date so I shouldn't have been surprised that this one was as well. He moved around so much that one week he would be breech and the next he wouldn't. He kept going back and forth. At about 38 weeks he was breech so they decided to schedule a version when I was 39 weeks, when we went in for the version, he was head down again. He was crazy in there. Thankfully he stayed in the head down position, but the stress that I had because of him being breech weighed on me as well. I just hated the unknowing. I got to the point that I almost just wanted to schedule a c-section so I could stop this worrying. But, I held out because I have had one of those before and I was not particularly fond of it, so 6 days after my due date I went in to labor on my own, unmedicated. When we got to the hospital they checked me and I was a 3 so they said to walk around for an hour to hopefully get things going because they couldn't admit me until I was at a 5, so my mom walked the halls with me making sure I wouldn't sit down, which was so hard! I was having a contraction like every 10 steps. I told my mom that if I go in and there is no change I'm going to freak out lol, we went in after an hour and they checked me and thankfully I was at an 8 so they moved me across the hall to labor and delivery and shortly after that he was born! I had no meconium when my water broke (which was a first) so I got to hold my sweet baby immediately. It was wonderful, I was in heaven! I immediately thanked my Heavenly Father for this healthy little boy and I just felt overwhelmed with joy.
I had a midwife this time but she delivered at the hospital which made me feel much more comfortable. The whole experience with a midwife, was absolutely amazing. My sisters and mom were there and even Kanzis got to be in the room with us. That was so magical having her there with us. We did a lot of preparing and explaining to her what would happen, I was a little worried of her reaction because she doesn't like when I am in pain, but I think the preparing worked because she did awesome and was so excited to hold her baby brother. I am so thankful for my husband, he was so comforting and patient. He helped me a lot during the hard parts! We are just so happy and so relieved that he is here!
After he was born, I was talking with one of my friends from church and she said something that really got me thinking, it made me feel selfish for wanting him to come here sooner. She said that "thinking of those brothers saying goodbye to each other brings tears to my eyes but also joy to my heart." Oh how that got to me. While I was wanting him here so badly, I didn't think of the goodbye they had to go through, how hard that must have been. When I hold Krimzon, I am so thankful for him and how he was just with his brother, he just came from being with him and that brings me so much joy. I am truly grateful for eternal families and how one day we will never have to say goodbye to each other again!
We have been enjoying every second of him! He is definitely a mommas boy and I am perfectly ok with that. He loves to snuggle, loves to be held, especially in the evenings, and loves to eat! He has been just wonderful!
He got to go on his very first side by side ride at just 2 weeks old! He did so good and we were sure to make sure he was nice and warm! It was such a fun time spent with friends and family!
Kamzlin turned 2! We celebrated at our home with some family! We just love this little sassy thing!
We just got back from our annual Pentz Family Reunion! It was so much fun and I am so sad it's over. I love spending time with family!
I love how much our family has grown!
And to finish up here are some random pics!
*Update! So I actually started this post like 2 weeks ago and finally had the time to finish the last couple things so I can post it! More has happened so I will be posting again soon! :)
